“Autumn in the Feels”

I can “feel” the seasons. Deep in my soul. For example, when I see anything related to autumn, I feel it deep down. It makes me feel comfort. I associate good things in my life with this season. I was engaged in the fall and a year later married in the fall. Our son was born in the fall. But I can go back even further to when I was a little girl. The coming of autumn brought change to the world around me. It may sound strange, but it reminded me that I was still alive. God spoke to me through the colors of the trees and cold wind on my face. I could “see” Him, as if I was watching an artist paint a picture.

As I grew and began to understand that the changing of the leaves actually signified death, even that became a sign of hope for me, because I already knew the leaves would return a few months later in the spring. It was a constant that I could rely on. Even when my life seemed to spin in 100 different directions or I may have even lost my way, God continued to whisper to me, “I am here with you and I will always be with you.”

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
    where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
    the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip—
    he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord watches over you—
    the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all harm—
    he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

Psalm 121


I will lift my eyes
I will lift my cares
Lay them in Your hands
I’ll leave them there
When the wind and waves are coming
You shelter me
Even though I’m in the storm, the storm is not in me.

“I Will Fear No More”
The Afters