“You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.”
Recently, I was in a conversation with someone in leadership and I had made myself pretty vulnerable and open to them about some challenges I was facing in my appointment. As I was explaining that what I was bringing up was not meant to be an attack against them their immediate reply was “Melissa, I know you would NEVER say something like this to attack.”
I wish I could describe the sense of relief that washed over me. It felt really wonderful to realize that even though we had only known each other personally for a short time; my leaders knew me. They knew my heart and understood where I was coming from.
I don’t know about you, but I am most comfortable around people who know me well. It feels good to be known, doesn’t it? Whether it’s our barista knowing our drink order when we walk into our favorite coffee shop, our coworkers asking about a family member who’s sick in the hospital, our friends knowing when we need a pick me up; being known is a sweet gift. It’s precious. It makes us feel valued. I am so thankful for the people in my life who have taken the time to know me well.
However, when I think about how well God knows me it’s enough to make my cup overflow with thankfulness. I don’t have to pretend to be anyone else. I don’t have to hide my faults, failures, or struggles. He already knows. Verse 4 of this Psalm says that God knows our thoughts, knows the words we are going to say before we even say them. I have to admit there are days I wish this wasn’t true. Some days, especially on days that my patience is low and my exhaustion is high, my thoughts are less than perfect.
But you know what the beautiful thing is? God loves me fully anyway. He knows I’m broken and uses me anyway. And even if I didn’t have anything else to be thankful for, which I definitely do, that would be more than sufficient. God is so good to us. Praise his name.
What are they things you wish even God didn’t know about you?
Think if some practical ways to surrender those things to Jesus.